This week

I had intentions to go to the gym but didn't. I also started writing in my food journal that I bought. It helped. But I also ate chinese food, Noodles & Co., Subway and lots of peanut butter and jelly. So this week I rate myself a D-

Disgusting

So I subscribe to this e-newsletter called How to Cook Like Your Grandmother.
http://blog.cooklikeyourgrandmother.com/

And it tells me some cool random info. Anyway I was catching up on them today (I read them in bulk when I think about it) and back in late August it featured the grossest thing ever at some Columbus BaconCamp.

First off - a full camp dedicated to bacon SICK. I hate bacon. The idea of bacon is gross to me. I don't know why. I like bacon but thinking about it is gross. And bacon with other meats like hamburger GAG. Why would you ever put TWO meats together. Death wish.

This is the grossest recipe they had from it.



That my friends is a "Apple pie, crust made with bacon fat instead of lard or butter, with a lattice-weave bacon top."

Here is the inside:


tell me that does not make you want to ever eat bacon again. SICK!

This shit is hard!

I swear that being in shape/thinner/normal for your BMI whatever for the rest of your life is the hardest thing ever!

I don't diet. I think dieting is stupid and pointless and only works if you want to say - get into a wedding dress that only comes in the size smaller than you currently or look thinner quicker but after the event/whatever is over - you just gain it back 10-fold. so it's stupid.

It's about forming the habit and making it a part of who you are. When people say, "Where's Mindy?" "Oh she's probably at the gym." You know that you are back to that point - er I do.

I went to the gym last night and Zumba-ed with Kendra. It was the hardest thing ever. I am so out of shape. I had to stop twice because I thought I was going to throw up (note: do not eat peanut butter and an organic bean and veg burrito the day of a workout) and/or pass out from light headedness and my face was beat red.

If you have never been to a Zumba class you need to find one NOW. It's not like a phase - like Curves or Weight Watchers. It's a dance class. That's it. It's cardio dance. It's like going to the club but without the creepy guys and drinking, etc. You can let loose to club-style yet easy choreography with other people doing the same. It's usually Latin, pop, country and hip-hop based - depending on the instructor. Go to Zumba.com to find a class in your area.

In Elkhart, you can go to
Eastlake Athletic Club
3400 Henke Road
Elkhart, Indiana
Thursday 04:30 pm - 05:15 pm

If you can't make that ... you can drive to Granger, Edison Rd., 23, Douglas Rd., Niles, IUSB, Goshen, Three Rivers. Wherever! Within 25 miles of 46514, there were 38 options and that didn't include the times/days just the places/instructors. And you can go to the site and chose a day you are free. And it usually only costs like $5 a class. Seriously. I cannot even tell you how much I recommend Zumba from just going to it. It literally changed my entire outlook on working out.

I am so out of shape that I am out of breath going up stairs and my feet/back hurt because of all the extra fat. My chin has a southern friend called double chin. My back fat is larger than my boobs. My boobs have merged into this weird armpit/above boobs fat. It's just unpleasant all around. And don't even get me started about my love handles and assive massive.

I am not saying that I am unhappy with the way I look or who I am. I love myself and I am confident and think I can still be sexxxy. I just flirted with some boys this past Friday at the Pivot Launch Party (that I took Ian too - Ian is amused when I flirt after a few glasses of wine. It makes him feel like I'm still human.) I just want to be healthier. I feel like a blob!

We are trying to get pregnant so what if I get pregnant and this weight and then gain 30 lbs even if I lose the baby weight do I really want to be 30 pounds HEAVIER than now?! NO WAY.

I would say how much I weigh but I've avoiding the scale since months ago when it hit 185 and I moved into a size 18. Um I'm only 5'3 and a half. My BMI was like 33 or some crap. I don't even want to know what it's done since then. that was like july.

SO once again I'm back to tracking/measuring/eating veggies/working out/blah blah blah.



ps another motivator for me is that I am going to the Dominican Republic on vacation in December. So I need to look decent in a bikini.

Look

Okay I might have fallen off the workout/eating bandwagon when I had my super awful ear infection because it hurt to move my face (walking, jumping, running) and I could only eat flat soft foods and well healthy foods aren't really flat or soft. So I ate soup, pasta, ice cream, okay I had doughnuts once. But now my jaw hurts a LOT LOT less and I think my ear is almost fixed because it's leaking stuff. Which I think is good for an inner ear infection. So I am trying to get back on track. Okay so the burger and onion rings I had at The Lemon Drop last night was not doing that BUT I had only had Subway 200 some calorie sandwich and 40 calorie Starbucks so it evened out.

Memorial Day Weekend

I haven't worked out for two weeks. I feel like shit. My jaw and ear are killing me this morning and I have slept five and a half hours. But I really need to work out. Not this morning because I'm going to work but very soon. And I ate crap food the entire holiday weekend. And didn't work out. It's just like with my ear and jaw, it hurts when I move. It hurts to chew, to talk, to yawn, to sneeze. It's awful. So I am almost positive it's going to hurt to jump and work out. Yawn.

duh

Oh ya I did come here to say something else ... last night at Wal-Mart I bought a new workout DVD that looks like Zumba.

I am going to try it hoping it will be more leg movement than upper body. We'll see how well that works out with my jaw/ear.

Here is a link:
http://www.buy.com/prod/10-minute-solution-fat-blasting-latin-dance-mix/q/loc/322/205813490.html

I'll let you know if I like it.

UGH

I have an ear infection from Hell. It is God awful. I don't know if it's an inner infection meets TMJ or what. But I know it's definitely an inner ear infection because I went to the doctor and got antibiotics. But from what I keep reading about jaw/ear pain it sounds like it could be TMJ too or both?! I dunno. I think that I grind and/or clench my teeth at night and I know I used to a while ago and I already have one of those mouthguard things but I think I should have gotten fixed and filed down before wearing it again because my doc said that made it worse. Apparently your teeth grow and shift on a fairly often basis. Who knew? Not me! Anyway so I haven't worked out for like a week because the movement and bouncing hurts my jaw. But I have been living off soft and/or liquid food because it hurts (like a MF!) to chew. And spit. And yawn. And pretty much anything that involves moving my teeth up and down or opening my mouth more than three fingers tall. (I tried that after I read it on a TMJ forum.) I can open barely to three and it starts throbbing in my ear and jaw. Anyway I'm just whiny and ick. I just want to chew food! And the pain is so awful and sharp. Alright that's all.

day 32 - Tuesday - May 12

It is my 32nd day since I started my I should really get back into shape and lose weight program on April 10, 2009.

It is my 24th consecutive day since I have been actively pursuing it - MINUS this weekend because my grandma was in the hospital and I was worried and overeating.

On April 10, 2009 - I weighed in at 181 pounds.
Today, May 12, 2009 - I weighed in at 177.5 pounds.

Which means that since I started dieting and exercising again (basically 3 weeks give or take) I have lost 3.5 pounds!

An average of MORE THAN a pound a week! Which for me is very impressive and it has been steadily decreasing.

April 10 - 181.0
April 24 - 178.4
April 27 - 179.5
April 29 - 178.1
May 2 - 178.4
May 4 - 178.1
May 12 - 177.5

Here is my diary entry today from www.thedailyplate.com (where I log my food daily)
110p I am confused because I just felt REALLY shaky but my eating patterns have been normal today. I ate, drank water, haven't had a lot of sugar. And caff. never effects me shaky-wise and I have the same thing everyday. Weird.

730p Just weighed in pre-workout and gained .4 pounds, weighed in post-workout and lost 1.1 pounds. I don't know and I don't care. I'm down to 177. 5 with a two-week goal of 176.6.

My Wii Routine Wiirkout tonight:
Generator: 30 mins/Weight Loss/Medium/Legs focus
33 minutes total
Sideways Leg Lift - 3m
Basic Step - 3m
Tricep Extension - 3m
Super Hulu - 3m
Boxing - 12m
Balance 4m
Torso Twist 2m
Tricep Extension - 3m

Wow

So all week I've been blah because it's my week and I've been tired, bloated, blah blah. And finally today I was like I need to work out it's already Wednesday. So I came right home and in my gauchos (that I wore to work) and my normal bra I proceeding to do "Dance Off The Inches: fat burning Belly Dance" 45 minutes of Eastern-inspired belly Bollywood dancing. Hips, butt, snake arms, Egyptian squats - you name it, I did it. (the company "Dance Off The Inches" also makes DOtI: Sizzling Salsa, DOtI: Hip-Hop Party, DOtI: Tummy Tone Party Zone and DOtI: Fat Burning Jam.

www.starzhoment.com/fitness

So I did
Warm-up
Belly Moves Groove
Cleopatra Cardio Combo
and most of Hip Roll Hindi Combo but honestly after 40 minutes of straight cardio, I felt like I was going to die. LOL I was panting instead of breathing and felt like I was going to faint onto the floor.

Overall I would say that in terms of workout your love handles, back fat and lower stomach, amazing workout.

What day am I on?
I started with the idea on April 10 - Friday.
Started working out 3x a week and eating right and logging April 19 - Sunday.

So it's been 26 straight days since I had the feeling/idea. And 18 consecutively. So I have 10 more days until it's a habit. This has been the hardest week so far. It's a very wow I could easily give up right now.......must.....keep........pushing...........myself.

ooooh

I'm 400 calories over my limit today. Cornbread is my cryptonite.

Yoga Yoga

I did yoga tonight. Basically just because my back hurt from the stupid stilettos.
I did

• bridge (3)
  
• cobra (2)
  
• downward facing dog (1)
• shoulder stand (1)
• spinal twist (4)
• deep breathing (1)
• jackknife (4)
• arm and leg lift (1/2)

It was nice. Then I (still on the Wii) did the globe weather thing and I found it very relaxing.

day 22 - Saturday - May 2

I think that's right. I'm not coherent yet. I need to do something today.

Day 19 since start/Day 9 consecutive

Hello lovelies that stop by to read my blog. I'm not getting many comments but I hope some of you are stopping by. Even if you aren't, the idea that you might is enough to keep me accountable.

I have made it to Wednesday. Yesterday was hellish. I was so annoyed and stressed and tired. Today, I woke up with a much better attitude on life and everything. I have only had 359 calories today (including lunch) and am a little hungry but yet happy that I'm training my stomach. Once you get past the restrictions, I find it gets a lot easier. I am already on my second 24-oz glass of water too!

I came in early today to work so I am working 8:15 to 4:15. I was going to go for my 30-minute walk tonight but it's raining so I will probably try out Wii circuits hopefully tonight.

Honestly, they look so scary and complicated that I haven't done them yet. I def. need to work out though tonight. I am not doing as well on the work out scale as I am on the diet scale. And being thinner and healthy isn't just based on diet alone or exercise only. It's a healthy and consistent combination of both.

Anyway back to work. Just wanted to drop in to track my progress.

from TDP diary today

Mood: Stressed

612p I had an awful day. I barely got any sleep last night and was not pulling my weight at work and having the bad day on top of that THEN my boss yelled at me so I dragged my ass to CVS across the street and loaded up on sugar and caffeine with sugar - two fastest ways to perk up and get shit done. So ya I knew I'd be over calories but I felt I had to sacrifice calories to keep my job.

What I mowed the other day

Taken from Neighbor A's side again, you can see our teeny backyard patio block and Neighbor B's fence and Neighbor C's fence

Walking into our backyard from Neighbor A's side (Neighbor A's fence is pictured) - trailer below is beyond this first bump out


Taken from neighbor A's fence (trailer is touching side of house and neighbor B's fence is pictured

Day 17 - Monday - April 27

Today's measurements
Bust-bra line - 37
Bust - full chest - 40
Bicep - 13.5
Waist - 35
Hips - 46
Thigh - 27.5
Calf - 15
Weight - 179.5 (as of 11 p.m.)
BMI - 31.79


Past Measurements History

Measurements	Bust around	Bust fullest	Bicep	Waist
	bra line	around chest
Date
10/2/2006	n/a	n/a	n/a	n/a
November-06	n/a	n/a	n/a	35
1/31/2007	35	39	13	32.5
3/26/2007	n/a	n/a	n/a	n/a
4/1/2007	33	37	13	31.5
5/4/2007	n/a	n/a	n/a	n/a
6/3/2007	33	36.5	13	31.5
9/6/2007	34	37	12.5	32
4/10/2009	n/a	n/a	n/a	n/a
4/24/2009	n/a	n/a	n/a	n/a

Measurements	Hips	Thigh	Calf	Weight	BMI
Date
10/2/2006	n/a	n/a	n/a	171	29.4
November-06	45	28	n/a	n/a	n/a
1/31/2007	43.5	26.5	15	n/a	n/a
3/26/2007	n/a	n/a	n/a	163.5	n/a
4/1/2007	43	25.5	14.5	n/a	n/a
5/4/2007	n/a	n/a	n/a	158	n/a
6/3/2007	42.5	25	14.25	n/a	n/a
9/6/2007	42.5	25.5	14.5	157	26.95
4/10/2009	n/a	n/a	n/a	181	n/a
4/24/2009	n/a	n/a	n/a	178.4

Week One Done!

It has been one week since I started my fit life. I have so far lost the 2.6 pounds. I also met my three days a week workout goal. I didn't follow my schedule like I wanted to though but I still tried to be more active.

The big thing that I am focusing on is relearning and reteaching myself the art of restriction. It's not quite dieting because dieting is temporary. Restricting is this mental thing that I do that kind of works with my OCD nature as well.

It's a willpower thing. Like for example, every day at work I can't have lunch until I finish my entire Venti ice water. Some days I'm done at normal lunch time for me and have lunch but some days like today - I'm not done yet - so no lunch yet no matter how hungry I am.

Other things I have been doing in terms of this is no couch until I do something after I get home. That one hasn't worked as well yet as the water one but it's getting there.

Wish me luck for week 2!

SUNday

I just realized today I don't really like the sun as much as I thought I did. It's too bright out. And it dries out my skin. And it's too hot. I swear for every extra 10 pounds you put on you have to add an addt'l like 5 degrees to the temp outside.

Mowing

I just mowed my lawn for two hours. I hope that counts as a workout!

day 14

Well it's day 14 since I came up with this brilliant idea. And consecutive day 5 that I've stuck with it! I weighed in tonight and found that I have lost 2.6 pounds! I'm not stupid so I will congratulate myself but keep in mind realistically that it's probably water weight. Regardless though I have to pat myself on the back because I lost weight! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!