I swear that being in shape/thinner/normal for your BMI whatever for the rest of your life is the hardest thing ever!
I don't diet. I think dieting is stupid and pointless and only works if you want to say - get into a wedding dress that only comes in the size smaller than you currently or look thinner quicker but after the event/whatever is over - you just gain it back 10-fold. so it's stupid.
It's about forming the habit and making it a part of who you are. When people say, "Where's Mindy?" "Oh she's probably at the gym." You know that you are back to that point - er I do.
I went to the gym last night and Zumba-ed with Kendra. It was the hardest thing ever. I am so out of shape. I had to stop twice because I thought I was going to throw up (note: do not eat peanut butter and an organic bean and veg burrito the day of a workout) and/or pass out from light headedness and my face was beat red.
If you have never been to a Zumba class you need to find one NOW. It's not like a phase - like Curves or Weight Watchers. It's a dance class. That's it. It's cardio dance. It's like going to the club but without the creepy guys and drinking, etc. You can let loose to club-style yet easy choreography with other people doing the same. It's usually Latin, pop, country and hip-hop based - depending on the instructor. Go to Zumba.com to find a class in your area.
In Elkhart, you can go to
Eastlake Athletic Club
3400 Henke Road
Elkhart, Indiana
Thursday 04:30 pm - 05:15 pm
If you can't make that ... you can drive to Granger, Edison Rd., 23, Douglas Rd., Niles, IUSB, Goshen, Three Rivers. Wherever! Within 25 miles of 46514, there were 38 options and that didn't include the times/days just the places/instructors. And you can go to the site and chose a day you are free. And it usually only costs like $5 a class. Seriously. I cannot even tell you how much I recommend Zumba from just going to it. It literally changed my entire outlook on working out.
I am so out of shape that I am out of breath going up stairs and my feet/back hurt because of all the extra fat. My chin has a southern friend called double chin. My back fat is larger than my boobs. My boobs have merged into this weird armpit/above boobs fat. It's just unpleasant all around. And don't even get me started about my love handles and assive massive.
I am not saying that I am unhappy with the way I look or who I am. I love myself and I am confident and think I can still be sexxxy. I just flirted with some boys this past Friday at the Pivot Launch Party (that I took Ian too - Ian is amused when I flirt after a few glasses of wine. It makes him feel like I'm still human.) I just want to be healthier. I feel like a blob!
We are trying to get pregnant so what if I get pregnant and this weight and then gain 30 lbs even if I lose the baby weight do I really want to be 30 pounds HEAVIER than now?! NO WAY.
I would say how much I weigh but I've avoiding the scale since months ago when it hit 185 and I moved into a size 18. Um I'm only 5'3 and a half. My BMI was like 33 or some crap. I don't even want to know what it's done since then. that was like july.
SO once again I'm back to tracking/measuring/eating veggies/working out/blah blah blah.
ps another motivator for me is that I am going to the Dominican Republic on vacation in December. So I need to look decent in a bikini.
